Nightmares

I still have nightmares about you. It's been six months but sometimes somehow you manage to get into my subconscious and on my nerves. The nightmares were always the same, but this time... This time they were something completely different. We were no longer together, since the beginning of it. Unlike all my other nightmares about you where the frightening part was you leaving me. But in this one, we were no longer and I was still frightened. I was scared of seeing you. It was all about that. I'm still trying to understand it, understand why I was scared. And maybe it is all about real life. Maybe it's because I will never stop feeling something for you. I will not love you forever, because I don't love you anymore. But maybe you will be something I will always remember. Because you changed me, I gave you all of me and I got back nothing. And how I wish I never gave anything to you. But I did. I gave it all and it wasn't worth it. Maybe that's what my nightmares are all about... Loosing myself, not you. Because I know if and every time I see you again, I see the part of me I'm missing. The one I gave you and how I wish I could get it back, not you.