Letter to myself after trying to kill myself

You have to believe that there are still places to go to, sites to know, people to meet, moments to live, movies to watch and books to read. You have to believe that there are still people who will care about you and will do what ever it takes for you to be okay. 

But you as well have to believe that you will be fine and that you will be alone some times and that that is okay too. You have to believe that the pain will go away, eventually, that depression will not always win. You have to believe that there are still people to trust, series to watch, surprises to find and new songs to obsess about, battles to win but also to lose. 

You have to believe that things will get better, they will always get better. You have to believe that it's okay to be heartbroken, to cry but that you must eventually get up and get over it, over them. You have to believe that event though someone broke their promises and left you alone that doesn't mean that everyone else will. You have to believe that love does exist, that happiness will find a way. 

You have to believe that there's someone out there, someone who wishes to meet someone JUST like you. Someone whose heart is also torn apart, whose pieces need to be put back together. Someone who will understand everything you've been through.

You have to believe there's still forgiveness. That all your mistakes will lead you somewhere better. That it's always darkest before the dawn. The better things are yet to come. You have to believe in the power of yourself.

So please, please stay here, be alive, don't kill yourself because there are just so many things worth living for and worth waiting for and worth wishing for,  for you not to be alive. Even though now it seems like the end, you have to believe that it will get better, because it will always get better.